Some days I wake up and I feel good. Those days are special to me. Often, I wake up and I feel a lack in my heart. There's really no easy way to put it into words. At least, there wasn't until tonight. There was an open mic at our school's chapel service tonight. I listened to many, many of the students that I live with on campus give their testimonies of how God has been working in their lives, and a theme emerged: community. The word seems so...
Okay. Spring break is over. It’s a sadness and relief wrapped up into one. Sadness that I couldn’t have more time to rest my mind from schoolwork and delve more into creativity. Relief that the semester is almost over and that my circumstances are continuing to change. I like this about life—things will always change, sometimes painfully slowly, but consistently nonetheless. This first week back after break has been fascinating so far. I...
Hey there! So, today felt brand new. This has been my fourth day on Spring break and, lest I become complacent, today came with a sudden change of pace. I had to leave the house actually because my mom was doing childcare. Anyhow, I decided to walk to the Bayside Church Cafe (because I don't have a car) and work on homework. So that's just what I did. I left the house at 9 AM and made it to church at 9:45. I even finished a whole paper while I...
I had the strangest dream the other night. It was very disturbing; I woke up from the dream at 12:30 AM and started praying. I decided to share it with you here because I hope that talking about it will make me feel better. I changed the names of the people in my dream because they were all people I know and I figured it would be better for them to remain anonymous. "I am riding piggyback on William (a friend)—we pass two other mutual friends....
So, yesterday I received a letter. It was a certificate of victory. Wanna see it? Wanna know what it says? "Thank you for expressing interest in chapel worship at William Jessup University. Unfortunately, we will not be able to offer an opportunity for regular participation in an '11-'12 worship team. We do, however, encourage you to continue to develop your gifts and will keep you in mind for future opportunities." When I first got this, I was...
I struggle from making mountains out of molehills. My natural tendency is to be overly emotional about the things that I think I need, and very jealous about the things that I don't have. It's kind of like my reactions to the weather today. When the sunlight is shining brightly, I feel at peace and productive. Then clouds come casting their shadow over me and I become unsettled and depressed. Huh, I guess that just means I'm human. I had a...
God has seen your striving. He knows you may be tired. He knows there are things in your life that you don’t understand. Is God not good? Is God not just? No, if anything, it is we who are unfaithful to Him. What does it look like to live constantly aware of God’s presence? God’s presence is not one of a parent constantly scrutinizing your actions, waiting to scold at the first sign of disobedience. He is not wanting you to be aware of Him...
This week, I decided to keep a log of my adventures each day. Why go on adventures, you ask? Well, let me tell you! They are fun (usually), and I like them, and it is healthy to be silly (or serious) every now and then. Besides, they also make for great stories later. Without further ado, I present to you, my adventure log for this week: 3-25-11: I stood on my head, just because. I was inspired by my friend Rachel Jackson, who once stood on her...
I recently auditioned to play violin in my school’s chapel services, and I came away with some realizations that I simply must share with you! 1) I was reminded once again how insecure I really am and how much I crave acceptance from the people around me. The minute I walked on stage I immediately felt a surge of energy course through my veins although it wasn’t completely nervous energy like it has been before—it was more of an...
I’ll be frank, I’m not sure what to say right now… I’ve been pretty tired this week. However, it’s been a joyful week as well. I’ve been learning contentment and honesty and surrender. I’ve been learning thankfulness. In my copy of the devotional Jesus Calling, I read today that I should let thankfulness temper my thoughts. What a wonderful idea. Thankfulness keeps my attitude headed in a positive direction. Thankfulness keeps me...
