I just want to be mature and complete! I feel like I am constantly learning and re-learning the same lessons in life. How long will I go through this cycle of repetition? How long will I so stubbornly stick to my old ways of thinking? Change me, O God! Create in me a pure heart. I see other people pass me by on the road of maturity, learning the lessons that I somehow never fully grasped and I mourn for my own lack of understanding. Perhaps I...
I was feeling defeated today. What do I do when I feel defeated? I talk to Jesus. So, J and I were talking today and He showed me something that I hadn't fully realized. I've been comparing myself with my brothers and sisters in Christ, trying to measure up to an imaginary standard of excellence that would not bring fulfillment. I was questioning God. Why do there seem to be so many people much more talented than I? Why do I feel unneeded? Why...
"Sunshine is the best disinfectant." —Supreme Court Justice Louis D. Brandeis I woke up this morning to a ray of sunshine through my window, and I couldn't help but smile. After a busy week of school during which it was mostly cloudy and rainy, I needed the encouraging brightness of sunlight. It brought to mind, one of the life lessons I have been reflecting on this week: renewing your mind. There is a reason that the Bible says that we are to...
When you attempt to explain an emotion with words, the best you can do is describe it. Actions are the only things that can really express feelings. Actions are the rawest display of emotions possible. Describing emotions with words is the rational mind's way of normalizing what it cannot understand. To this purpose, the act of writing to normalize expresses fear. The smallest action may explain volumes more than words can contain.
This morning, I woke up with questions on my mind. Let me explain some history: the space of time between this post and the last has been considerable. Here is what you need to know. Sometimes in life, people will hurt us and circumstances will crush us. It's a very general statement, I know, but it's a start. Since the start of this semester at college for me, I have had people enter my life who have reminded me of past hurts: friends who say...
